I didn’t disappear. I promise.

I have a 5 month old baby who demands I am attached to him every.second.of.the.day.

I am still nursing, so I can understand his attachment, but I am not saying it isn’t a little (searching for the right word…) frustrating. This is where you all give me suggestions and/or your sympathies when you tell me it will last until I wean him.

My first son just stopped wanting to nurse around 3 months. My youngest has decided he is going to nurse forever. And ever. Amen.

Anyhow, I am at an impasse. I don’t want to stop nursing, but it is so bad that I really cannot go anywhere for a long period of time without a call from home saying the baby is inconsolable. I love him to death, but something has got to give.

I put him on a blanket to play or in his walker, and as soon as I am out of his direct line of sight, the screaming starts. I keep telling myself that in the grand scheme of things (and his life) this time that I am spending with him is only a very small percentage of his lifetime. It is worth it.

On a happier note, I have started working out. I joined the Citizens Healthplex a couple of weeks ago and I absolutely LOVE it. I couldn’t say anything bad about it if I tried (and you all know how I speak my mind on these matters). It is a really nice place, and the staff is amazing.

My primary goal is to lose … a lot of weight. I told my husband that when I got within 20 pounds of my target weight, I would tell him what my starting weight was. I have always weighed more than I looked. Even when I was the ever elusive size 5 (for all of one year), I would still tell people what I weighed and they wouldn’t believe me. I must have heavy bones.

Is that possible?

Regardless, I am overweight now – so having heavy bones is neither here nor there.

So, I want to work out every day and hit my target weight (which is extremely realistic for me). I don’t want to be bone thin, and I don’t want to be overweight. I just want average. Average is a good thing to shoot for when you are on the far side of beyond normal.

I have worked out almost everyday and even tried a Zumba class. If I had one word to describe it, I would choose: INSANE. This is my blog though, and I can use a lot of words to explain it.

INSANE.

INSANE.

INSANE.

INSANE.

It was definitely a work out, and I plan on doing the Wednesday (6:15) class from now on. It is to be a beginner’s class from now on (on that day only) and I would highly recommend it if you aren’t coordinated (read: like me). I looked like a complete moron bouncing around breathing erratically. Seriously.

It is safe to assume that I will still look like an uncoordinated moron next Wednesday as well. Hopefully, I will get the hang of it and I can start focusing on the whole not passing out thing.

Seriously, it was so much fun to work out that much, and have it be fun.

All in all – the Healthplex gets a 10 in my book. As for Johnny Carino’s (or is it just Carino’s now), the jury is out for deliberation. I had a really bad experience there Tuesday night and called the main office in Austin. The woman who helped me was so unbelievably nice and helpful and is still having more people call me tomorrow to talk about what happened. Once all of that is cleared up, I will share all of the sordid details. And sordid it was…

So – if you are looking for a place to workout, try the Healthplex. I was really surprised at how much I ended up liking it. You get to meet with a fitness specialist and all that jazz. The only bad thing about all of this working out is that I am pretty sure I am not allowed to eat massive amounts of Twizzlers anymore.

Until next time… find me an answer to this million dollar question: Do they make Diet Twizzlers?